heartbroken

My thoughts have been with a childhood friend today.  Last night, her sweet little angel daughter passed away after an open heart surgery.  She was born in January, and the whole story surrounding the situation is just one that tugged at every heartstrings I had.  It is a story of infertility, hope, loss, faith, and courage.  You can read more about it here.  It is absolutely awe-inspiring.  These people have an incredible amount of faith and courage and love, and their daughter was lucky to have such an amazing family surrounding her during her short time on earth.

My prayers are with my friend and her family as they struggle to find comfort and peace amidst the pain, grief, and heartbreak.  I cannot even imagine the loss she must be feeling, and I am praying hard for her and her family.

I get to hold all three of my sweet boys today.  Hopefully one day I will have a whole gaggle of children.  But for now, I am content and grateful to hold my sweet, precious little angels and just let my heart be full of gratitude and awe that they are mine to look after for now.

Motherhood is such a beautiful, fulfilling, heartbreaking, joyful, all-encompassing experience.  I feel so incredibly blessed to be a mother and to have my knowledge of the gospel and my Savior.  I feel Him there each ad every day watching and guiding me.  I hope that my friend can find comfort in our shared faith and knowledge that this is not the end and that someday she will be able to hold her beautiful, precious daughter again.

My thoughts have also been floating around a song my mom wrote when I was young.  My aunt and uncle lost their baby many years ago right at her due date.  It was also a daughter.

Reach Out to the Lord

I wish that there was something I could do or say

to help relieve the pain that you both share.

I hope somehow that you will receive some comfort

in knowing that I'm here and that I care.

Sometimes I know it's very hard to understand

 why things happen in our lives the way they do.

May you find comfort with your knowledge of the gospel plan

and know the Lord's prepared a way for you.

Reach out to the Lord and let him help you

for He understands the sorrow that you feel.

Have faith in the Lord, let Him take you by the hand.

The Lord out Heavenly Father understands.

She's a special little spirit in our Father's eyes.

She did not need to live this earthly life.

She has gone on to live eternally,

and you will once again unite,

as you live righteously.

Reach out to the Lord and let him help you

for He understands the sorrow that you feel.

Have faith in the Lord, let Him take you by the hand.

The Lord out Heavenly Father understands.